Grace always said if emotions had color, hers would be black. She was surprised how she would fall into the dark hole of the emotions being dragged down by the wildest thoughts of living and dying. She considered herself elegant black phoenix with orange red fire on her feather tips. Originally, the legendary bird “Phoenix” is one of the ancient Greek mythology creature that rises from the ashes and is blessed with its new life. It represents lifecycle of living life, dying and rebirth. Similarly, she believes after being swallowed by poison of life, maybe she will be able to have a proper birth of her.
Re-birth happens every time to human beings, when we all come out from den of pain and struggle, when we take a step closer to know ourselves. Aura speaks louder than anything around. Driving inside the racing car of life, she wished how would it feel to be a vintage classy dream like her name? Grace always felt like God has not blessed her with anything. She feels like a douchebag or a bird in the cage wanting to break-free from this exhausting life but always end up being stuck in the cage.
Her range of emotions is so jet black like a black sky thundering with light and rain as if it is mourning to live peacefully and freshly without any burns of scar. Little did she know, her scars holds story and it is a part of life. Grace would look herself into the mirror and be shocked, “How come this beautiful creature has a mind and heart full of agony?”
She knew that one has to deal with their darkness by themselves. She wondered, “Why is she not able to break the cycle of sadness and resentment?” She knew she has an amazing future awaiting but her heart and soul is tired looking for solace. For once, she wants to live a carefree life without any worry that pulls her back. Like Grace, there’s many people around the world looking for peace and solace, hope, everyone including Grace discovers the light within the soul. As it is not a battle, it is where one have to take a step to be there for themselves and love. It is hard, yet she doesn’t want this pathetic part of her life be the last chapter breathing. Grace believes, “Maybe, maybe this is what is keeping me move forward in life.”
– By Sakshi Attal